Thursday, May 29, 2014
Feeling The Loss
My father died almost 19 years ago. I have been through the grieving process and handled the everyday emotions that go with the loss of a loved one.
I managed through buying a house, planning a wedding and having babies. There were difficult moments, but I got through it.
Today, while visiting an old friend, I had a very unexpected emotional moment. She had grabbed an old scrapbook she had made while we were in high school and brought it up for me to look at.
I went through a few pages, and then my eyes settled on a date - July 21 1995 and that was it. I started to cry. I didn't even really get through reading what she had written - just that her best friends father had died.
It has been so long since a moment like this has come. Most of the time now, I am prepared for them as they will happen on his birthday, Christmas, anniversary of the day he died etc....but this, completely unexpected.
It'a amazing how after all this time, I still feel the loss. I am good at pushing it to the back, and going through life - but in the end, that feeling never really goes away - it just kind of gets pushed aside for awhile.