When my oldest was born, it never occurred to me that I might be suffering from any sort of postpartum depression. I had times where I was slightly sad (considering that he was whisked away right after birth and transferred to CHEO at less than a day old, I wasn't really surprised) When he came home, I loved it. Taking care of him was what I was meant to do. But some times, when the crying just wouldn't end - I would cry right along with him. It wasn't just about the crying though, I was sad. It was a different kind of sad than I had felt before. I never thought of harming myself, or of harming him.
But still, I never thought I was experiencing PPD. That is, until my youngest was born. I honestly could not believe the difference in my emotions. I had some triggers that would have me in tears, but I was generally happy and upbeat. It was like night and day compared to when my oldest was a newborn. At my 6 week check up, my doctor asked me about things - and I was very honest with her. She agreed that I had probably been suffering with mild PPD after Mr. J was born.
There has been so much in the news recently about PPD and women harming their children and/or themselves. PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE seek help. Tell your husband, your mother, your best friend and your doctor. Do not feel that you are bothering them, or making things seem worse than they are. Lean on them for support.
To know you are not alone, here are some links from other bloggers that have also written about PPD:
Maple Leaf Mommy
Kids in Kanata
If you have written about PPD, please leave me the link in the comments below and I will add it into this post